Goodbye

Goodbye
It's the hardest thing to say
To turn back and try
To pick the pieces of my heart that I broke

I wanna leave it to her
But I don't think she can do it
She cannot love you better
And that's the truth to it

She can't love you with every fiber
Of her solitary being
But I cannot be her
Because I did it to myself

So goodbye is all my fault
And it kills me tho I try
To move on from this halt
But I don't want to take another step

Without knowing you are with me
Because what is life
Without who you've come to be
It's killing my heart

My soul and mind
To turn around
And leave what's behind
So I crumple to the ground

Where I am happy to stay
No forward or backwards motion
Its better that way
Until I emerge

A stronger better woman
Like a swan from an ugly duckling
Like a cloth from yarn woven
But until then

I'll lie here gathering strength
I don't know for how long
Healing has no specific length
My heart breaks and tears momental

But my love being eternal
Even though you may forget me
I continually grateful
Of who you were to me

So today I cannot say goodbye
I cannot turn back
So on this ground I lie
Hoping for redemption

But hopes are always empty dreams
They sometimes appear realistic
But reality is not what it really seems
So instead I'll say I'll lay here

But one day I will weep goodbye
And on that day I will rise 
And be a better woman