Fire pumps through my veins,
images of happiness flash before
my eyes. Rapidly. I can’t
seem to grasp or feel
what it is that makes
me smile before the next
image flickers on and off
again. Delirium bubbles from
my lips. A crazy laugh really
but it doesn’t scare me.
I’m happy and “that’s
all that really matters right?”
I ask the walls around
me. They don’t answer but
their silence doesn’t dampen
my ride. My happiness is impenetrable
as long as I feel the heat surging
through my veins. Through my
heart the thumping growing
faster and stronger. I should
worry that it will stop.

Sweat pools on my body.
The shaking has started
again. Torment envelopes my
being. I should cry for help
but I’ve forgotten how. My eyes
are swollen but I don’t remember
crying. My heart is a raw slow
erratic beat. I forget to breathe
until my lungs cry out. I get
dizzy, but I never faint.
I lay conscious but unconscious.
Is a moment’s happiness worth the fall?

In a different world I’m faced with a
decision. Is this poison or the magic
key?
There’s only one solution.
I reach out and bite the apple.
As I fall, I have no regrets.

At least I found the answer.