Loneliness grips me in the night
like angina. I gasp for him.
Reaching beside, I feel nothing
but cold sheets, the absence of
his heat. I shiver.
Where is he to pull me closer
as he sleeps. His instinct, searching
for me. Asleep our bodies lay
as one. And tonight my body is
a half. For his dreams are my
dreams. My hopes, his
And when he is gone. I am
remiss.

I watch the video in my head.
Once bitten twice shy
if it happened again?
Would it be my fault or yours?
Would it be yours for forgetting
my feelings again?
Or mine for thinking you would
think about them?
Can you see me?
Once I sat surprised
but this time should I put the
sandbags in, and wait to feel
the pain as your neglect
pounds on the walls of my heart
like hurricane. And your
inconsideration add salt to my
wounds. Should I have seen
this coming? Is it my fault or
yours? If the levees of our
friendship break again? As you
let the outside world seep in
our intimate life? Who is to
blame? Should I have to worry
or am i being paranoid? I
need a message in the sand. I
need a whisper it's okay. I
need to know what happened
was the past that you've
learned and I....
I need a resolution.